After a lot of discussion throughout the months that I have been here in Minnesota, we have decided it would be best if I moved to Kansas. It turns out that Nathan will be attending Officer Candidate School beginning in June of 2007 and will not return to Minnesota until early in 2008. That would mean that I would be alone in Minnesota for another solid year and a half. It has been hard for me to be here alone for the past 7 months. I am grateful that I have had so many friends here and that so many people have lifted me up and taken such good care of me. I have just reached a point where I really need there to be someone at home when I get there. It has been hard to walk into this empty apartment. I am quite lonely and the absence of Nathan breaks my heart every day. Being with family and living with my dear mother and father in law will help me to get through the next year and a half without Nathan.
It is now November 11th, Veteran's Day, and I will be leaving here in just 19 days. I am so excited for the change of pace and I'm thrilled that I won't be spending Christmas without family around. I'm looking forward to learning more about Nathan's family and developing some really strong bonds with them. I will be attending school in Kansas working on my Sign Language Interpreter certification. (For those of you who don't know, both of my parents are deaf so sign language is quite dear to my heart.) I'm so excited to start on a path towards something that can be a productive force in my life. I have spent so many years now just wandering about without any idea of what it is I want to do. I have a lot of peace now knowing that I will be working towards a goal and that I won't be a secretary anymore. All of the jobs I have had have been good for me and I have learned a lot about who I am through those jobs. Now it is time to develop a career.
There are so many things that I am looking forward to now that we have made this decision. There will be many people I will miss greatly over the next year and a half. They will all be in my prayers and I will look forward to returning to Kansas with Nathan and reconnecting with everyone. I feel good about this decision and I am looking forward to all that God has in store for us in Kansas. I grateful for a husband who is willing to make change when it is time to make change. I'm thankful that we can both roll with the punches and focus on our future goals rather than our present situation. It is the hope of our dreams for the future that keeps us moving through these hard times away from one another.
Today I just thank God that He knows how our lives will turn out and that all of our worries and frustrations can be turned over to him, that we don't have to worry because we know Him.
