The Waiting is So Hard

Yesterday Nathan left Iraq. He is sitting in Kuwait, waiting. He'll land on American soil on Saturday night. I leave for Las Vegas on a mission trip on Saturday afternoon. There is just a week and a half between me and Nathan. In just a few short days, this whole ordeal will be over with. The closer we get to the end, the harder this all becomes. I have so many things to get done in the next 48 hours before I leave. I'm just missing him so much right now. More than ever. The first week of a deployment is the only thing that compares to the last week of a deployment. It is so hard knowing that he is just out of reach. I'm so tired of not being able to hold him and see his face. I want to be able to crawl under the bed and hide for the next nine days. I don't want to function or to clean or to prepare. I don't want to go on this mission trip. All I want is my husband back.