Another Sunday Without Nate

It often seems like I miss him most on Sundays. Sundays are the times when it is most apparent that he is not here. I sit in my usual seat at church and I realize that for the first time in my life, I know that there is supposed to be someone sitting next to me. Each day that passes is another day that I am more and more convinced that Nate is God's chosen one for me. I know that the peace I have comes from the Lord. I know that the next year and a half will come with challenges and joys beyond anything I've known until now. The blessing of Nate is worth every difficult day and every lonely moment. Each day I learn more and more about who Nate is and the quality of his character. I am learning to trust him as I learn to trust God more and more. Nate is showing me that he is a reliable and loving man who will stand by me through the good and bad times. I know that his love is more than a feeling. Just as with Christ, love is not a feeling, it is a way, a life, a walk, a journey. Being committed to one other human being involves the same type of way, it is a walk through this world together. Commitment is a journey in the same direction without wavering, without indecision. My time with Nate has not been based on feelings so much as it has been based on an indescribable knowing. The knowledge that I have an opportunity to truly know and experience this wonderful man of God and to develop a true and lasting relationship with him is what drives me through the times when I miss him and I want to hold him and touch him and talk to him without interruption. I know that the Lord will bless us if we continue to walk in the way that He has directed us. This is the journey we have been given and I am so very thankful for every moment of it. I thank God for each and every day that I am able to continue to seek His will. I thank Him for the companion He has given me in this walk. I am so very grateful today. Even though I miss Nate most on Sundays, I am also reminded of the thankful heart that I have for having been blessed with him in my life.

Thanks be to God for this journey called Waiting on Nate.