10 Days Until Christmas

Nate and I will be together again for 91/2 days in just 10 short days. I am anxiously awaiting our reunion and I keep running over and over all the things I want to say and all the moments I want to share in those short 91/2 days. There is so much one doesn't want to say to their "other" over the phone. I've held back on so many feelings and thoughts over the past 31/2 months and I need to share those things with Nate during our precious time together. We will soon face seperation once again as we head into the long haul, the deployment to Iraq. God has blessed me with many tasks and many distractions over the next year or so. I know that time will fly and that soon he will be back in my arms for good, or at least until the next deployment. I often look at Nate's picture and wonder what it will be like to look into his eyes again and what it will feel like to hug him and to hold his hand once again. It seems as though our connection has only grown through this time apart. For the first time in my life of sordid love affairs, absence really does make the heart grow fonder. For the first time, I can put my trust in a man. I know that is a true gift from God. Trusting Nate and believing that we will make it to the end of this trial are things that I have never known before. I learned very early on that it isn't wise or safe to trust men. They always leave and when they stay, it just hurts. Nate has shown me that "always" isn't a term one should ever use. He has been strong, faithful, and sensitive and he has never once let me down or turned away from me. I know that his committment is true and that he is an honorable man. I am blessed beyond anything I could have ever imagined.

Once again, my thanks are to God for this incredible journey called Waiting on Nate.